May 29, 2011
I can't believe how many friends are having babies this year!! I am glad we missed that boat! Jaylie loves to see them and take care of them. She will be such a great big sister someday! No I am not making any announcements. We are still waiting to try for more kids until we feel like it is the right time. I am so grateful for Jaylie! She makes us laugh everyday with the things she says and does. I love finding the things she has tucked away in random and often silly places. I didn't love it so much though when I realized my wedding ring was one of the things she picked up and tucked away. Luckily I found it a couple days later in the pantry under the fruit snacks. I'll remember not to put it on my dresser when painting! I am also crazy about my hubby! He is so perfect for me! He keeps me in line and reminds me to pray about things instead of letting my emotions guide my decisions. I am so spoiled! I guess I am just feeling very blessed today. That is better than the whining I usually type. I think since my grandma's funeral, especially since I was asked to write my feelings down and speak at her funeral, I have been feeling gratitude for the gospel and the knowlege that we will be together again. Knowing that I can be with my family for eternity is the greatest comfort! Especially when a loved one passes away and I feel their absence in my life. And back to my initial subject, I am awed by the miracles that come in the form of children! Bringing a baby into this world and raising children is like having a window to heaven. They are so sweet and innocent, and it makes me realize that they are fresh from heaven and from seeing and being with our loved ones we are missing. Our lives are closer linked to heaven than I realize. I am so happy and overwhelmed with love for the children in my life, my own little angel, neices, nephews and the children of friends. I am thankful for the good people who are our friends. I have never had so many friends in my life as I do now and I look up to each of them! I remember when we moved here how much I hated it and how I prayed and cried every night to find just one friend to make me feel like this was home. My prayer has been answered so many times and is still being answered! I love all my friends and feel like I have known them forever. Thank you all, for being my friends and letting us be a part of your lives!
May 21, 2011
May 2, 2011
I just need to vent again. So slice some cheese and I'll pour the whine. So I got a call today from my employer that she may not be employed until July 25th, if at all. Josh starts school in June so I have to find work, again. Did I mention I just quit babysitting for someone else so I could go back to work for her? It isn't her fault and I am not blaming anyone, I am just frustrated with everything in general. All I want to do, and all that I have wanted to do since I was a little girl was stay home and be a mommy. I just want to have another baby. We have prayed and decided to put it off until he is done with school. We are down to the final months!! YAY!! Of course it can't just go smoothly. I just need to work for 3 blasted months and then I can CHOOSE whether I want to work or not!! I know, my life is simply and not difficult compared to many, or pretty much everyone else. But hey, it's my life and my problems and I can stress about them, no matter how big or small. Really, I like having a job and earning money, but I will not forfeit raising Jaylie to do that. That is why I choose to babysit instead of getting a day job. I plan to continue babysitting too if I can while I raise my kids.*sigh* When I write it down it really isn't such a big deal. At least Josh has a good job/career that he loves and we are all healthy and able to work. I realize I am being ungrateful for what we do have and focusing on the small things we are struggling with right now. It will all be over in a few months anyway. Better start looking for some work...